As some of you have heard or seen I got baptized last Sunday. Many have asked if it was my first time being baptized. I was baptized long ago as an infant in the Lutheran church. While I do believe in child baptizsm or dedication, I feel you don’t remember the baptism, or becoming a true believer of Christ.
Baptism is an expression of our trust in God. It says, ‘I believe Jesus when he says that he can save me and bring me back home.’ Baptism symbolizes the death of our old life – that it was worthless as far as getting right with God is concerned – and the start of a new life. But crucially, this new life is not our own, we’ve been made alive together with Christ (Ephesians 2:5).
My family and I have been attending the same church since 1995, my attendance off and on of course through high school and college. I am certain I have sat through hundreds of baptisms thinking, wow this is cool, but “it’s just not my time” or “I am not where God wants me to be in life”! Each time I have felt the holy spirit giving me that nudge, but the devil was holding me back. Through studying scripture over the years I have come to realize, God doesn’t want us to be perfect, he doesn’t want us to rely on ourselves for change, but to seek only him.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Before Sunday I had no plans to partake in the ceremony, however the Pastors sermon got my attention. “Great change happens in a moment”. There’s never going to be that perfect time in our lives to make a change. I had this idea in my head that being baptized would mean I would have to be “perfect” or I would need to prove myself to others. In fact I’m probably the furthest away of who I want to be in life right now! The change that needs to be made is relying on God and not my own understanding and fears. And while I’ll still have the same demons and fears, I’ll be making more of a conscious effort to make better decisions in life. 🙂